Sunday, June 28, 2009

Why Now?

Do you ever have a feeling that you finally have a hold on things, but it seemed to slip right from under you? Yeah. That's exactly me right this minute. It doesn't make any sense to me. I know I'm a teenager, but life can be very difficult to deal with. I have had the summer to take control of things, but I don't think it's permanent. People are growing up so much faster. It's is hard for me and friends. Your friends grow up fast right in front of you, but you don't know what to do. I'm not saying growing up and acting mature is a bad thing, but why? Yes i know 9Th grade isn't 1st grade anymore. But it seems like as the years past "fun" isn't fun anymore. You can no longer sit with a group of friends and laugh about a dumb joke. It has to be about drama and the girl next to you. I don't know. I have changed a lot over this summer and the end of 8Th grade. i don't find it entertaining anymore. The Older i am getting the more responsibilities i am getting and it makes me feel more free, but as i am getting older, people get more mean, judgemental, and just rude. I don't know i guess it is just life, but isn't life suppose to be fun? I just hope people will except who i am becoming. I have sat back and looked at the big picture and i hated who i was, I love who i am now, but honestly with the people in this world, i don't think it will last.


Anonymous said...

your true friends and people who care will except you. just have to find out who those people are you can tell just by the way they talk to you should want the best for you and want you to be happy.

Stay happy..