Sunday, November 8, 2009

No chance here..

They usually say that a new day is a new beginning and a new week is a fresh start, but i don't think that is the case for this week. It will be a continuation of last week. I can already see it. I honestly don't know what i am going to do. I know i will be forced to make the right decision, but i honestly don't think the right decision is always the best one to choose. I have had a weekend to think and i still haven't come to anything. The conversation on Friday left me speechless. And i think that is because i am wrong here and i have no argument on this one. I don't know, i really don't. This whole thing has my head spinning, I just want it to stop, and stop NOW! Tomorrow can either go two ways, 1: bad for me, good for everyone else, or Good for me, and bad for everyone else. I guess i just cant win in this case.

Sunday, November 1, 2009

I have a feeling....

I have a feeling that I am starting to get back into my old ways. I don't know what happened but I have been feeling weird lately. I have been sick, but not like that feeling. It might be the book that I'm reading about a teenage pregnant girl, but I don't see that making me feel this way. You know I'm going to be honest I feel alone. I really do. I have tons of friends, but I still feel alone. I want someone in my life that I can call mine. And that I can see all the time. I am hearing all these stories of my friends and their new guy and I am really happy for them all, but on the other hand, I feel kind of left out in that category. But I guess I just have to suck it up because there is nothing I can do about that.