As of right now

I have not been on here in a while, so i decided to update. I am doing ok. There has been a few rough spots in my life recently, and i am just trying to get over the. I am happy with my friends, i got 2 of my best friends back, and i am so thankful for that. I love them so much. I am in a good mood right now. Today was painful. I had woken up with something wrong with my neck and i was in bed all day. Literally. I have never slept so much haha.! It's alright though, I have been sleep deprived, getting like 9 hours of sleep a week, so it felt good to just sleep. I just wish i could have done that minus the pain. Oh well! It is a lot better than this morning, i hope when i wake up tomorrow, it will be better. Well, its time to go to bed again! I am not sure what i am doing tomorrow, but 2 more days till Christmas Eve!!! Woohoo! Presents!!!!:))

No chance here..

They usually say that a new day is a new beginning and a new week is a fresh start, but i don't think that is the case for this week. It will be a continuation of last week. I can already see it. I honestly don't know what i am going to do. I know i will be forced to make the right decision, but i honestly don't think the right decision is always the best one to choose. I have had a weekend to think and i still haven't come to anything. The conversation on Friday left me speechless. And i think that is because i am wrong here and i have no argument on this one. I don't know, i really don't. This whole thing has my head spinning, I just want it to stop, and stop NOW! Tomorrow can either go two ways, 1: bad for me, good for everyone else, or Good for me, and bad for everyone else. I guess i just cant win in this case.

I have a feeling....

I have a feeling that I am starting to get back into my old ways. I don't know what happened but I have been feeling weird lately. I have been sick, but not like that feeling. It might be the book that I'm reading about a teenage pregnant girl, but I don't see that making me feel this way. You know I'm going to be honest I feel alone. I really do. I have tons of friends, but I still feel alone. I want someone in my life that I can call mine. And that I can see all the time. I am hearing all these stories of my friends and their new guy and I am really happy for them all, but on the other hand, I feel kind of left out in that category. But I guess I just have to suck it up because there is nothing I can do about that.

I'M 15!!!

Woww. today was amazing! Even though i am having another party tomorrow, with all my crazy friends, i had a family party tonight and it was the most amazing thing! I love being around the people i love the most! Which is my family! I had fun just talking and hanging out! I even made $193 so far haha i still have another party tomorrow! Oh man that is going o be crazy i cant wait to see what they all got me!:):)::) Good night! I am going to the mall tomorrow morning!:)

Woww!

Wow, you don't know how happy i am right now! You know i think i just over came something for myself. I am usually, well i wouldn't say jealous, but, yeah i would. I was told something tonight that usually would kinda irritate me, but i told myself, that if i am just happy for people then i will be much happier and that is a lot less stress that i am putting on myself. So i am. From now on, i am just going to be happy for people, even if i am not perfect with it. If i tell myself that i am happy, then i am and it just makes me in such a better mood. Man i love it! I really hope, NO, i am GLAD that i am changing everyday with new things!!! Yippee!:D

:D

This weekend has been amazing! I haven't had a weekend like this in a long time! Totally relaxed, smiled the whole time and spend time with Ana!! I love hanging around with her! She makes me in such a good mood! So after school, we went to Water and Ice!! Yumm! then we went to her house and babysat all her brothers and sisters!! I love them haha! Then we went to the Skyline vs. Desert Ridge game! That was so much fun! After we were done working concessions. we hung out with all the cheer team, and all the boys! That was so amazing! Never had the much fun at a game! When we got home around like 11 something, we made dinner and watched 17 Again. Well, i watched the beginning because i fell asleep haha what a loser i know! The next morning she cleaned her dad's car and then i went home! When i got home, i cleaned the house and went and saw Ryan! Then, at like 930 i went to Bashas! And subway!! Yumm! When i got home, i made chocolate chip cookies!!!! Well, i have to take a shower and get ready to go with my mommy, and ALL of my sisters!!!!!

How I am doing now...

Well, right now, i don't really have anything to complain about. I have everything i need and want. I am doing really well. I have a feeling on why i am doing so well. On Saturday, i was sitting in the bathroom with my best friend Hannah Underwood, and we were talking about how family is SO important to us. I really never realized everything they do for me. They will be with me forever, no matter what. I love my family SO much! That talk really changed how i look at things. I feel bad for taking advantage of them, and that needed to stop. I have everything i could possibly ever need and want, just by having them!
Anyways! Besides that, i am doing good. There has been really no drama the past two weeks! And i love it! I am taking advantage of that!! I am loving life right now, and i hope it lasts FOREVER!!!

How I'm feeling right this moment...

OK so do you ever have that feeling where you have this amazing friendship, like best friends with someone other than your normal group, but while that's going on, you are feeling like you are losing another? Well that's me right now. I am so close with my friend Madison, and i am so happy because she is an awesome friend, but i fee; like i am losing one that is too close to lose. I don't know it has been weird. I'm not mad at all, but there is always this little tension that i do not like but i want to go away but I'm afraid to say something because i don't want it to make anything worst. I do not know what to do, i am holding it on as long as can, so i guess I'm just going to keep my mouth shut for now.

Just keep going...

It's right there, i can see it. I am so close to getting over this bridge that i have been on for a year and a half now. But it is taking forever. I am at the end here and i still have a some to go. I am actually really proud of myself right now, cause i have not lost it through all of this, but you know what?! I don't know how much longer i can last. I think it is because i have learned that if i need to cry, i cannot hold it in. And that's why I'm sitting here crying. Tomorrow is a new day, and i am going to try and make the most of it. I am going to try to smile every chance i can, and just take it hour by hour. I am going to the opening volleyball and football game, so hopefully that will get my mind off of things.

Awwww....

Oh My gosh, I love storms! I am sitting in my bed just listening to it! It really calmed me down after today. I walked my dogs when it was pouring and lightening, not such a good idea, but i didnt care, i wanted to get away!:) I wish it would storm forever:)

New And Improved!!

Well, i am have been doing very well. I am happy all the time, i am not as loud. I don't thrive on always being the best or getting into trouble. I love who i have become, i am not sure if its the "old" me per say, but i love where i am at right at this moment. JROTC is really helping me too. I am getting help building my self esteem up and that's just what i need. I am learning new ways of doing things, and what is "right" My thinking was way off, what i thought was right was me just looking good in front of people and that's not it at all. I used to hate people asking me how i was cause they already knew the answer, but they asked anyways, Now when they ask, i love being able to say"I'm Fantastic!!" I don't know how i went through last year, but i know how I'm gonna get through this year, positively thinking and just being me:):)

First week of High School! Wed-Fri

Well, okay the first day was FANFREAKINGTASTIC!. I had gotten my schedule changed from Teens N Teaching to what i had wanted, student aide. And that went great. It was fun! I was looking forward to that all year. But no, i had a feeling it wouldn't last long just because i had wanted it. So on Friday at lunch Mrs. Laluma, or Starita, or whatever her last name is, came up to me and was like Oh BTW, we are looking at your schedule and we are taking you out of your 1st hour cause we are not having him have two student aides in one hour. I was like WTF. I have already had my schedule changed twice and now you are gonna change it again? And she was like yeah. I was like but he had 2 aides last year 4th hour? And she said she didn't care its not gonna happen. So I'm kind of pissed at this point. Oh and she said maybe 2 of my classes are gonna change. That is bull. Who cares if he has 2 aides in one hour, it doesn't harm her. Ugh she makes me mad at times. Whatever, im going to my first hour, and if she remembers then she can come get me, I'm not going to go out of my way to make a change that i don't agree with so whatever! But I'm not going to let it bother me, I promised myself that whatever happens this year, i am gonna look past it and make it a good one. OMG ROTC is amazing! I love it! If i pass this test we have to take next week on a booklet we have to read, I get my uniform!!!! I'm super excited! I cant wait!!!

Its about time!

Finally!, i got my schedule changed! I don't have to take stupid teens and teaching. I would have failed that class because i don't like it. Ii don't know what i am putting in its place! I'm gonna try to get another student aide class. When my mom talked to them they said that on my registration, i put i wanted to be a doctor, and they said that if i take another class like that then i wouldn't have a high enough G.P.A. Who cares. Yeah i put a Dr. but I'm going into the Marines first so that's all that matters! Ugh i cant wait. Four moor years and i am hopefully sent far away somewhere to be in boot camp and then hopefully i can go out to fight! Sounds weird but i cant wait! Well I'm going to read New Moon, i started yesterday and I'm only on 227:/ i should be farther so peace!

BFFLHOH<3:)!

Okay, here i go, this is going to be a long one, but I'm gonna do it!
Tayler Anne Zuffranieri. My best friend, no scratch that. My un-biological sister. Your not my best friend anymore, you are my un-biological sister. We are so close. Closer that i have ever. will ever be with. Laughs, crys, yelling, pain, happiness, sorrow, heart breaks, every emotion you can think of, we have been through it together. I love you to death and you know that! I will never forget your babbling! Just because you didn't want me to take a simple walk! My parents wouldn't even say anything like that lol! For a while i didn't think you really cared, but i really see it now. You really care about me. And not that many people actually, really, truly care about me. Not like you do. I feel more like home, at your house! I cannot wait till i turn 18! I'm movin in! I think its funny i asked for your room and you planned on us sharing the master! I feel special lol. I know i do things that aren't right for me, and you tell me, but i haven't seen it yet. I will don't worry. And i am so glad that you haven't given up on me. You have given up on Janae and you still havent given up on me. You and her have been friends since you were born and i feel really lucky to know you are here for me. And you know I'm here for you. We have so many memories together. Ahaha you are officially my scary movie buddy! You are the only one i can watch a scary movie with! AAAAHHH CHARLIE!! Haha good times. I love knowing that if we know we are going to get into trouble, we are going in together, whether any of us had to do with it. I love sitting in our room and telling you about my future! And what i wanna do with it! I think you are the only one scared that I'm going into the military, everyone says, it would be good for me, but not you, you actually care if something happens to me. And i love that. I think its funny how at school if we aren't with each other at the time everyone is like "are you guys fighting?" And stuff like that just because i might be doing something else right then. Its funny. Just like Cook, when he was joking and was like, whens the wedding lol. I made those invitations. Hahaha i love it! Man we will NEVER forget Halloween of 2008!!! Best day ever haha. We even been through taking care of Hannah. Never again. But it was fun! I cannot wait for the upcoming years! Prom, (just for you), graduating, graduation road trip!!! Ugh, i cant wait for it to come and for it to be with you. Well, you are my mom (since you said!), best friend, my BFFLHOH, and my un-biological sister! I love you to death and don't you go anywhere! I love you!<3:)

Ana Raquel Morris<3

Ana Raquel Morris. I don't even know where to begin. Well, here i will start with this. I wanna thank you, most of all, for everything you did. I probably don't deserve it, but you gave it all to me anyway. I will always remember sitting on Boucher's couch that one 4Th hour and doing nothing but talking about everything. From beginning bell to ending bell. We talked about everything. And there was nothing pointless. It was about life. My problems, your problems, your family's problems. Everything. And the thing i loved most about that was when i started crying, you pulled me over, held my head and cried with me. I will cherish that moment FOREVER. No doubt about it. You bring my spirit up in any situation i am in. If I'm having troubles at home, school, friends, anything, you always bring out the good in everything. And you always make me feel better about it. I will never tell you thank you enough cause there is no way i can. You know you can call me for anything, and i know i can call you for anything. I am always going to be here for you. DON'T FORGET IT! I love you<3:)

My Sister's Keeper..

Okay, so tonight me and my friend Shandi went to see My Sister's Keeper. I knew it was going to be good, but i never thought it was going to be THAT good. This movie is the best movie i have EVER seen in my whole life. No joke. I cried throughout the whole movie. It's about time they make a movie like this. My make-up was everywhere! I regiment to girls, do not wear mascara! It will be off and down your face faster than anything! That movie should win EVERY award it is nominated for! I give it 10000000/5 stars! GO SEE IT!

Two BBQs in Two days!

Okay. So on Saturday night, my family was invited to my god parents to have a BBQ, wasn't anything big, just us to catch up. So, i was like ok, what would it hurt to go. I knew from the start that i was going to be very bored, cause i don't really have anyone to talk to. My dad and Mike, My mom and Laura, and Bailee and Zack. So i thought of this brilliant idea to invite Tayler! I thought ya know, that would be perfect, i haven't seen my best friend in forever and i would still go and see my family! So i called her up and she didn't sound too enthused, but she ended up asking ans she was allowed! I was all excited because i have been grounded and h haven't been able to talk to any of my friends in like a week so i was looking forward to that! So i went to Tayler's house and we got ready, then we came back to my house and we left like 45 minutes later! When we got there everything was going perfectly for the first 10 minutes, and then it all began. So my God brother Josh, thought of this amazing idea to bring his snake out and feed it while i was there. Not such a good idea. I HATE snakes. So i ran barefooted in the dirt all the way to my truck, in the heat and i was going to sit in there and wait till they got done with that nasty freaking piece of you know what! Then, my mom came out looking for me and they told me they were done with it., So knowing me, i believe them and i went inside and they were all sitting at the table watching it move in a box. I stood i the living room across the kitchen where they all were and i was just watching them. So you know i was a little better knowing it was in a box and everyone was watching it. But then my mom wanted to hold it and it was so HILARIOUS she held if for like 30 seconds ands then she was like GET IT OFF, GET IT OFF, GET IT OFF!! Josh had taken it and she ran to the bathroom, HAHAHA! So, while i was standing there in the same stop, didn't move, with my bag on my shoulders, Tayler decides she wanted to hold it:/ I knew from the start it wasn't going to be good. She had it all on her chest and stuff. I mean, i don't care, if she wants nasty freaky germs on her then be my guest. But it was MY shirt she had on. I still haven't touched my shirt still and u wanna wash it, but i don't wanna touch it! lol Then we ate and swam for a while but we had to get out because it was blowing really hard and it was about to storm. When we were all done, i played with Zack, Bailee and Tayler. After that, it was time to go home. Tayler decided to stay the night.Hmm. The next morning, We got up and we ate breakfast and i cleaned the kitchen and the bathroom while Tayler cleaned my room! Then We went over to her house to get ready for the barbecue she was having at her house with all her family! When i go there we had watched The Texas Chainsaw Massacre. Humph, that movie scared me. I missed some cause it was too scary for me. I am new at this scary movie thing because i am not one for them so it was a little too much for me. Then i got make up on and her family had started arriving around 4. W went swimming for a lot of the time. We ate dinner (which was really good) We all had steak and sides for it! After that we were on the computer for a while, and then we decided to go in her room and we messed around. Omg haha Tayler has this pillow and it has beads in it. and we were messing around it and doing pretty funny shit with it! It was hilarious! Then i ate some ice cream and she had bagel chips and then we watched Made of Honor. That movie is really good!. When the movie was over we shut the t.v. off and the lights and we were laying in her bed and we just started talking about memories from our elementary school and our favorite memories growing up as children. We talked for about an hour or maybe an hour and a half. Those moments are when i know she is meant to be in my life. I love just sitting and just talking to her. I would do that over anything. It is my favorite! Then we fell asleep and that was my weekend!<3

My birthday!

Omg. I am so excited! So i was just informed that i might go to Disney World for my 15th Birthday! I cant wait i really hope we go, That would be freaking AMAZING! Woot-Woot!

Saturday July 11 and Sunday July 12,2009!

Saturday was totally hectic! Okay, so my mom and little sister were suppose to be home from Wisconsin at four. So me and my dad got up and he had to go on a couple of jobs, so I went with him to kill time! On his third job around like 11 or so, my mom called him and told him that they couldn't get on that plane cause it was full, so she tried the next one, nope not that one either, then the next one, still none. She was all sad and worried cause she wanted to get home and they had sent their luggage on the first plane that they were suppose to take. So when we got home, me and my dad had to look for a flight, That was crazy, let me tell you, i swear my dad talked to every person that worked in the airport to get them a plane home. So we had to end up getting them whole new tickets. Now on this flight they wouldn't be home till 11 p.m. but no one cared, they wanted home! So me and my dad had to go to the airport at 4 to get their luggage. Man that was crazy. We couldn't find a place to park cause out truck is lifted and it was too tall. So we drove around and around for at least 30 minutes. Then he decided to just let me go in and get them. So i did and then we went home and then we went to my neighbor house so they could watch the fight on PPV. So they watched that while me and my friend Shandi swam. Then around 9:30, we went home and picked up the house for them. We got there around 10:30! Their plane came in at like 11 which was a little early! Well that was the end of that night. I went to bed around 2 a.m. cause they were showing us their stuff they bought and stuff.

Well, the next morning, i was TOTALLY tired, I had to get up at 9 because i was going to the mall with my neighbor Marcie and Shandi and my little sister Bailee. We were suppose to leave at 10:30, but Marcie didn't feel like getting ready, so we didn't leave for another hour! It was fun. We walked around the mall till 1:30 and then we met up with my older sister Brittany, and Melinda! So there we were 6 of us all getting out toes done! It was totally fun! I usually get the regular french tip, but this time i got Zebra!<3:)>

OH OH OH OH OH OH!!! This morning when Marcie got home from work, she told us that she has to go to the hospital tomorrow (or this morning) at 8:00 a.m.:) She is gonna have little Ryan today!! I cant wait!<3:)>

Next year

Well, okay, Next year looks like its gonna suck already. I have freaking Teens and Teaching, (which I'm changing) I have only one semester of dance, I only have one semester of student aide,(well two because I'm changing my schedule), and freaking Photography,ugh i love taking pics but intro is gonna suck. I wanna lose my AA English class because so i can have dance all year. I don't think that will happen though because dance is full. At least i have Intermediate plus! The only thing i am really looking forward to is R.O.T.C!!! Heck yess!!! Well, i would write more but i am forced to clean:/ Peace!

Ryan Alan!

Ok, so my neighbor Marcie is going to have a little boy either this Tuesday or Wednesday! I can't wait! I have been waiting for 9 months lol. He's gonna be like my little brother! I have all sister and now i can experience like a little brother! I am so excited to hold him, feed him, and teach him things! He is gonna be over at my house everyday because my mom is going to watch him while Marcie works! Ugh i am so excited!!!! I am like gonna be a hermit because i am always going to want to see him! So, it looks like I'm going nowhere next year!!! Tehe!<3:)

What a night!

Okay. So, last night Tayler decided to spend the night and we were bored. I had cleaned my room that morning and i had wanted to rearrange it! I wanted to put the head part inside my closet! Sounds crazy huh?! But i wanted t like that. I gave the idea to her and she said sure! So, here we went! We took everything that was in my closet out and set it to one side of my room then we started to move my bed. I thought for sure that it was going to fit! We had my whole room in the center of my floor when we decided that it wasn't going to fit when we had everything screwed up! We tried at least 500 different ways of fitting it but my bed was too big! But i wasn't going to give up, i was too eager to rearrange my room so we did, Not the way i had wanted, but i love it now! My room is all clean and it feels like i just moved into it! I am never coming out lol!<3:)

Boring day!

Well, i thought today as gonna be the best day. I was gonna get up, do my warm up, wash my face, read my book and have the rest of the to myself. But no. I was all good until around like three today! My dad called me and wanted to bring me food! I was okay with that and then i thought i was gonna have the rest of the day to myself. It was okay! I mean i didn't care if my dad was gonna be here but then he wanted to do something today i really didn't want to do anything cause i wanted to sit at home and clean my room. I mean i love spending time with him but i didn't wanna go anywhere! So, he suggested the mall and i didn't wanna go just by ourselves so i begged him to let Tayler so she could help me pick out jeans, But that took like 30 whole minutes of begging and begging lol. And then finally i used him not taking me to Disneyland this week against him and he felt bad so he let her go! And now she is gonna spend the night. Hopefully we do something fun, but who knows with that party pooper!! lol:)

A little basketball player named Derek Rojas!

Derek Rojas. It's like a roller coaster! Up, down, up, down. But when its up, its perfect. Not like perfect dating, but he is awesome! He can make me smile even if i wanna wrip his head off!! At the moment, i am really down and he totally made me smile. I dont know how he does it, but he does and i love it! He can be the best friend anyone can have. Well he told me to write this, so here you go Derek!

I pretty much HATE myself right about NOW

Well, i have been having some issues, like usual. And as usual, i asked for advice, more like answers and direction. But this time, i was told i have to do it myself. I have never been told this before. I have always had someone there telling me what i have to do to accomplish something. I really don't know what to do at this point. Obviously when i make decisions, they aren't good enough, or they are the wrong ones. I have never made a choice, where people are like, that's good, you made the right decision. No. Never. I feel like someone just dropped 500 lbs. of concrete on me and told me to deal with it. Big changes are gonna happen to me i can't say if its gonna be good or bad, cause obviously i don't know the difference. Ugh....

9Th Grade Goals!

I have decided to make a list of my goals for 9Th grade! Here they are:

1)Smile everyday, even if it is a bad day.
2)Don't be overly sensitive.
3)Have a higher self-esteem.
4)Don't look back on the past.
5)Go to church once a month with Ana.
6)Stay positive.
7)Don't talk badly about other people.
8)Don't judge people before I get to know them.
9)Become friends with someone I don't like.
10)Learn a new talent.
11)Don't talk back to teachers.

Those are my goals for this year. I am going to try my hardest to accomplish them!

My day Today!

So, today should be fun! I am getting ready to go shopping with my aunt at the mall then probably to lunch! After that i am probably going to go to one of my best friends house. Ana. I can't wait! We haven't seen eachother all summer, we talk all the time, but i havent hung out with her! I miss her! Haha! Well, I hope it goes well i will most likely write about how it went!! Gotta get ready! Peace!

Why Now?

Do you ever have a feeling that you finally have a hold on things, but it seemed to slip right from under you? Yeah. That's exactly me right this minute. It doesn't make any sense to me. I know I'm a teenager, but life can be very difficult to deal with. I have had the summer to take control of things, but I don't think it's permanent. People are growing up so much faster. It's is hard for me and friends. Your friends grow up fast right in front of you, but you don't know what to do. I'm not saying growing up and acting mature is a bad thing, but why? Yes i know 9Th grade isn't 1st grade anymore. But it seems like as the years past "fun" isn't fun anymore. You can no longer sit with a group of friends and laugh about a dumb joke. It has to be about drama and the girl next to you. I don't know. I have changed a lot over this summer and the end of 8Th grade. i don't find it entertaining anymore. The Older i am getting the more responsibilities i am getting and it makes me feel more free, but as i am getting older, people get more mean, judgemental, and just rude. I don't know i guess it is just life, but isn't life suppose to be fun? I just hope people will except who i am becoming. I have sat back and looked at the big picture and i hated who i was, I love who i am now, but honestly with the people in this world, i don't think it will last.

Everything!!! Lol

I'm really bored. I want school to start NOW! I mean I love summer, tanning, vacations, and going places everyday, But I miss homework, haha sounds crazy, i know! But its true! I cant wait till tomorrow! Stretched Hummer ride with friends, all thanks to Hannah Underwood!! I cant believe she got it out of 400 people!!!! Im not sure what we're doing yet, but i know its going to be fun! Today I went to Santan Mall and bought two CUTE purses. !Awhh I love them! One is zebra, my favorite from Anchor Blue And o bought a pink one from Aeropostale! I love those stores. Haha seems like i love everything!!! Well, gonna go to bed since i have to be up and ready by 11:30! Night everyone!

My best friend, my B.F.F.L.H.O.H, my hero.

If she ever said goodbye,
I would die.
She is my hero.
She may not know it, but she is.
She is the only one who truly understands me.
I can never put on a fake smile around her,
She's too good.
She doesn't stop me from doing things,
She lets me try them and makes me realize it isn't good.
I trust her with my life.
No questions about it.
We don't agree on everything,
Actually, hardly anything.
But i think that's why we are still best friends.
No one can break us apart,
They have tried,
But they DID NOT succeed!
Because she is my: Best friend, my B.F.F.L.H.O.H, and my hero,
I would do anything for us to be friends forever.
Don't believe me, try me!
I love you Tayler Anne Zuffranieri!<3

Friday June 12- Monday June 15!

So, this weekend was pretty..uhm...entertaining i should say. Well, on Friday, I went to the mall with my sister Ashley. That was pretty fun, although she had the hardest time picking out her very first pair of skinny jeans! Haha that was fun! Oh and i got a pair of neon yellow sandals from Wet Seal! I love them! Then right when i got home, i went to Wal*Mart with my neighbor to her a birthday present for my little sisters birthday, and she got stuff for her baby shower the very next day! After that, we went to Babies-R-Us to get a dresser for the nursery room! When i got home i made salsa with her and we watched The Young and the Restless that we missed that day!
The next day was finally Saturday! I was looking forward to her baby shower forever! I love them. They're so much fun! It started at 10 am, i know it is way too early for a baby shower, but she didn't plan it so oh well! That was fun! We played lots of games and ate lots of food!
After her baby shower, i went to Tayler's birthday party. It was fun, we pretty much swam and talked! Besides Heather prank calling people, that was funny! Man i love Heather she makes things 500 times more fun! Only 6 people ended up showing up, which i was disappointed about but oh well it was fun anyways.
Sunday when i got home, i pretty much got ready for my little sister's birthday party! She turned 9!! It was kind of awkward cause i haven't seen my aunt cousin grandma and grandpa in like 2 months. We didn't really talk, i pretty much did my own thing with my neighbor Marcie and my older sisters!
Ok so today was okay to start off with, I took my little sister swimming. I didn't feel like going in, I'm pretty much swam out! hahah! And then i sat home for a while and then me and tayler went and got our nails done. I got barbie pink tips! I like them! Then when i got home i played a Hannah Montana game Bailee got for her birthday. It's now 2:41 a.m. and i;m not very tired but i am tired of typing. So yeah that was my weekend!!!

9th Grade...

I totally was not looking forward to my Freshman year at the end of 8Th grade. But now in June, I am! I wasn't looking forward to next year for a few reasons: 1- i didn't make the Precision Dance Company 2- i signed up to be a student aide for a teacher for ALL year and i wasn't looking forward to that for certain reasons and three, it was another year in dumb Junior High, and more EXTREME drama:/ Which i absolutely hated.
Now, I am totally looking forward to it! I have realized that even though i didn't make the dance team, i shouldn't give up, this should make me work even harder to my dream, which i am going to do! And my elective i didn't want, i don't even know why i didn't want it. I have a whole hour to just relax and talk to my favorite teacher in the world! And yeah there is going to be drama, but learning from last year, i have to just bite my tongue and walk along. Last year, i stopped at every turn that leaded to drama. This year, I'm going to walk right past it and smile, like i never knew it was a possibility for me! There are going to be a lot more opportunities for me in my Freshman year! I am going to be in J.R.O.T.C! I cant wait. Training for the military is my dream! Marines Baby!!. There are going to be new faces. Like a new principal, which I'm kind of sad about but i love change. And there is going to be a new dance teacher, I am totally sad about that, but I'm glad i am going to be able to be her student in high school! And I'm excited about it at the same time because like i said i love change ad i want to know what else there is out there. New rules, higher expectations, and new goals for dance! I cant wait till next year now! I have decided to put school work before friends. I mean i always have, cause i get all A's and B's but this year, I'm am going to exceed! I have made everyone else proud the last few years and this year, i wanna make myself proud! That's all!

Bored!

Bored!! i have nothing to do,i'm sitting on my bed texting a friend talking about pretty much everything haha pretty fun! And its like 12:20 in the morning. Oh well its summer! i have all the time to sleep! Hmmm what am i doing this week. Oh yeah! Saturday, im going to a Baby Shower for my neighbor! Can't wait til he is born! He is gonna be like the little brother i never had! And then like right after that, i am going to my bestfriends 14th birthday party! Woot Woot! That is going to be a lot of fun! I have a lot of things planned! I can't wait! I hope there are no party poopers, ugh i hate those kind of people they make me mad haha! Well, i guess thats all for this one! <3>

Hmmm...vacations!

OK so i just spent 6 days in California for my yearly family vacation to Disneyland! Ha ha sounds totally fun right? Well it was, only because it was 6 days unlike last summer when i spent 18 straight days there...wait no i went to Sea World for one day, sorry! Ha! No, it was fun i had tons of fun. I shopped most of my time there. And my sister and her friend even drove up there for a weekend! That was a blast! I bet people wish they could go there for 18 days and i would too if i didn't go there three to four times a year ever since i was one! I have never been anywhere else really except Wisconsin to see my family and Minnesota, well just because that's where the airport was, ha if that counts! I love to travel and i hope my family will do much more of that soon! O wait, i might go to six flags this summer with my dad and two older sisters! I can't wait!

Hmmm...this summer

Okay so I have two whole weeks to myself because my mom and sister are leaving state to visit relatives. (Well, I wont totally be left alone. I mean my dad is going to be here but he goes to work everyday. So I have about two weeks to jump around to different friend's or family's houses!!! I'm not sure what I want to do. I'm not sure if I want to stay at one persons house for the whole time or if I should go to different people's houses?!?!?! Not sure. If I were to stay at one person's house it would be my neighbor Marcie, but if I were to move around, I probably would go to Ana's Caitlyn's Heather's Hannah's My grandma's my aunt's Tayler's and stay home some time!!! Man life can suck Bahahahah!!!! Jk, It should be a lot of fun though!!

Heather Nicole Strzalka: This is for you:)

So funny, gorgeous, and caring!
She loves her to death!
She has stopped her from bad choices!
and watched her transform!
She makes her laugh, smile, and cry tears of joy!
Heather Nicole Strzalka, I love you to death!
Don't go anywhere!

Ana Morris: This is for you:)

A hero.
A friend.
An UN-biological sister.
Words of wisdom.
Memories to last forever.
Makes me smile.
A room to light up.
Makes me laugh when i don't even want to smile.
Tears of joy behind,
Tears of pain.
I love her to death.
This "her" is named:
Ana Raquel Morris

One of My favorite Poems By: Me!

He was everything.
He was her everything.
His smile.
His words.
His touch.
She could talk to him anywhere anytime
about anything.
She could never be down around him.
It was...
Impossible
He had her heart.
And she has his.
She trusted him with it too.
She never knew this would come.
She wanted to be with him forever
But forever is not a possibility anymore.
He took her heart any destroyed it.
She fell and now she can't get up.
Please come back she begs.
I Love You

My WHYS and HOWS?!?!

There are so many questions I have always wanted to know or the "why is this this way" sort of thing. So. here are some!

1. Why do people smile then they are about to cry?

2. How do people say they know how the other person is feeling through their eyes?

3. Why do people bring up situations to other people that they know are sensitive to them?

4. How is it called peer pressure when the person says yes?

5. Why do people say their your best friend when they get mad at you so easily?

6. How come parents are so naive when they were worse?

7. Why do people say they have your back when they don't even have theirs?

8. How can people hide their emotions?

9. Why are teens so controlled?

10. How can people say they have more than one best friend when best means the best?